Home sick?

Is it possible that I am home sick? I mean, really, could it be? I moved out of my parents house 8 1/2 months after turning 18 and have NEVER once thought about moving back in with them.

Yes, I have missed my mom and step dad (dad), but never to the point that I have physically gotten ill. Im not sure if missing them has caused me to become sick, but Im thinking about moving home.

I have never really been buddy-buddy with my mom until I got pregnant. Within those short weeks her and I became close and it felt kind of good. After losing Amia her and I have kind of gotten closer, but I cant really explain how.

Anyway, the past couple of days things have been rough. My boyfriend and I havent really talked much. He has never been much of a talker, but after losing our daughter he has been quieter than ever. The past few days I have felt very naseaus and "pukey" and Im not really sure why.

Am i feeling this way because Im in a great deal of pain from losing my daughter? Or is it because I miss my mom and step dad?

I wish I could describe how Im feeling without going into detail because its kinda gross, but who cares!

I feel like Im going to puke...ALL THE TIME! No matter what I eat, dont eat, drink, dont drink, I feel this way. Some of the time I feel "air headed" and Im not exactally sure why. I cant sleep at night, but its VERY easy for me to fall asleep during normal "day activities." I tend to find myself crying a lot and I dont know why most of the time. I feel like Im "just one big ball" of puke, tears, and frustration. I havent thrown up any food, just liquidy stuff.


Do I move home with my mom where I know I will be able to talk to someone about my daughter or do I stay here with my boyfriend where we never talk about her?

We (my boyfriend and I) have talked about Amia once or twice. We have cried together about/over her, but didnt say a word. I just wish that he could open up and tell me how he feels about our her.


UGH...IM SO FRUSTRATED!!